Remind me why I Love You?

The season of romance and having another big red celebration which is Chinese New Year makes it more Red than ever.
I dont really fancy Chinese New Year despite the annoying songs and hot hot weather around makes u just wanna stay home and chillax.. But the angpao's makes it worthwhile and the gathering can be somewhat fun at times.

I won't be having any valentines specials this year, but what I feel I am lacking in this relationship is that I tend to forget about what made us? What made me love you? Why do I love you? Is it worth waiting for you?
Because sometimes when I am so caught up with my own life, I tend to forget what I love most out of that special someone.
Of course the last answer to that question is Yes..:)
What I miss most is being swept away in his arms by him, being pampered, seduced in his words, be a doll towards him, I dont mean being dumb but being lovely and a darling towards him. In another words, I miss being woo-ed by him.
I am not saying his not good enough for me, but the physical contact has been missing for about 8months now, so its rather sensitive and dry now.
Whenever his with me I think his too good for me that I dont deserve him at times and look down upon myself.
I know he loves me dearly and whichever way he looks and thinks of me is equally same as me.
But sometimes I cant feel the L-O-V-E....

What makes our love so special is that, I know I can handle and workout things by myself. Not having him to guide me all the time I learn to makes mistakes and solve it in my own manner.

Internship 19 April - 10 July

My mind is clouded with thoughts of where should I do my internship. It is so fast ain't it? Time passes like a speeding train that never stops, the time is always ticking.. With a blink of an eye, you stand before something you never expect to happen.

We need to make 5 choices at where we want to work.
I hope Taylor's has a list of good hotel's. If not, I gotta apply for it.. It is going to take time and what if it can't be done..??
This is the nervous part. You don't know whether will they accept you or not, only a certain period of time will let you know. I think the most important in all of this is your CV and how you present it.

Looks shouldn't be much of an issue, but first impressions says it all. I hope what I have done in the past helps with my resume.
But I am glad that I have worked at a number of places, at least I know how it is like to actually work in the kitchen or as a waitress. I know that I hate being a waitress despite having to put a fake smile every time a customer walks in to the restaurant. I am passionate about working in a kitchen and make someone smile when they see and eat the food.
Partly,yes, I am still serving food to my guest..but it's best to just feel the smiles from the food itself. I am not a big fan of fine dine, cause I hardly had any "good" fine dine anyways. Not in Penang of course. I had a fine dine experience recently at a supposing-ly famous hotel, but it was rather a disappointment with the bill totally to a BOMB..! Thank god I was not paying for it. lol...

Pictures are taken from the net.

Having this internship could make me change my perception of fine dine (good) food. From there I could explore more on my taste buds and hopefully one day cook some real fine dine and be the best in what I do.
I like comfort food..
Mostly pasta's and stew's.. :)


Doesn't it sound comfy and filling already?

The day goes by with an AHHHhh CHiiiiuu...!!

I know, I have been neglecting my blog.. (as usual).
My college days goes by with just a blink of an eye, there are days when its real fun and sometimes a real bore. With the new campus, its still boring... its so huge but its so empty.
I like the look of it though its boring, It has the College/Uni look. Feels much more better than the miserable/shared/campus/business buildings at LCS.

Here are some picture's of the new campus and college mates.







I practically drink more coffee than I should now. All the morning classes and also practical classes pretty much weigh someone down. I think I am the only girl there that drinks Coffee like water? lol.. I hardly see any guys drink more coffee than I do there.. maybe soon?
I had 3 cups of coffee today, 1st during service where I was the bartender, 2nd was after service, and the 3rd was unintentionally. Let me tell you why, I was out getting some groceries cause I was so eager to make some Indonesian food which is call Rawon which Cha Cha gave me. Its a thick paste of spices and u mix it with Beef and accompany with some rice and veggie, It is good..:)
So after getting me groceries, I looked out and it was raining real heavily.
I wanted to just walk under the rain but despite my weeks of getting flu on and off, I rather not risk getting worst. The only place to wait is, yes... STARBUCKS.
Got a latte and wait wait wait wait...
Im hyper yet SICK! :(

While waiting, I read the newspaper ;
In WELLINGTON,NZ a girl is willing to give up her virginity in exchange on getting money for college tuition fees. The highest bidder will get to ...you know.. Yea, betcha anyone will do anything for money. And the highest bidder is approximately 45thousand NZ dollar.. wow! That is more than enough for her.
Hopefully the person is nice enough to just give her the money with no exchange or what so ever.

Will you go to the extend of losing ur virginity for a lifetime education?

If you ever do that ad in Malaysia, the highest bidder will be "SEPULUH RINGGIT MAU TAK MAU??"
HAHAHA...

Emotionless

Here You go Anna! I took this sometime ago! hahaha
I bet you know where this is, but there are still books right?
Right.

I am emotionless sometimes.
Sometimes I feel like talking, I really do want to talk to you. It was an act of hunger, a hunger to talk to you. Somehow somewhere in between, people do get lost for words and I really dislike talking to you when others are around. Just like when I draw, I hate people looking, just like when I cook, and talk (unless it's people that I am comfortable with) . This is something I really need to change, I am like this since young.

The fact that the person was talking to herself beside me, was just annoying. I'm sorry but I find it really really really rude, because she always does it. It's not only this time but it is ALWAYS!
Even when I am on the phone, she will talk,yell and scold me despite whoever I am talking with, she does not seem to care. She always say " I won't give you face in front of your friends or guest".
Yes, I will lose my face in front of them but I guess she will be the biggest loser of it all. A person who does not respect people's priority and would rather just make a fool of herself.
Never once she is satisfied nor appreciate things people does for her.
She just loves to compare, and compare and compare us with others ( never good to compare), bring out about the past and the bad stuffs. Talks to herself, mumbles, clean,CLEAN, and VERY CLEAN!
I know I shouldn't be saying stuff like this, but I just want people to understand why am I like this towards her because none of you know this. You are not in my shoes, you will never understood the torment I go through. I love her very much but she just love sticking a pin into your butt and the pins just slowly evolves!

My boyfriend thinks that I am talkative, but I'm not.. Really..
I am only talkative towards the person that I am comfortable with and have lots in common.
I maybe noisy at times, but it only last for awhile. When I'm beat and down, thing's gets a bit too quiet around. I am pretty much dead/ lifeless/ motionless.
I barely even mingle around with my college friends, because I am not comfortable around them.. It's pretty hard to actually find people who are nice to talk with.
Some people do talk a lot of crap, like really crappy, but there are people who really enjoy this.. I just don't get it at times. People just love crappy words I guess.



I do like being quiet you know, let peace into the mind.

TIme wasted

Got up late as usual nowadays..it's a holiday, don't blame me..
Went out with Emkay and her friends, Alvin, Brian, Samantha and Christ for a movie called The Imaginarium of Dr.Parnassus by the great late Heath Ledger, Christopher Plummer ( the guy who acted in the Sound of Music as the father) yes he is still alive. Lol.. along with Jude Law, Johnny Depp and Colin Farrell. It was definitely a messy movie, and I would not want to watch it a second time man. The actors were good, just not the story line, it was messy and somewhat I called confusing you and makes you just want to close your eyes and fall into lala - land. For a movie like that, TOO MUCH DRAMA !!
Then got to Nando's and had dinner which I should be eating since I was suppose to go home for dinner, but the smell of the chicken was too tempting!! So I had Chicken Salad instead to fill my craving! lol... Emkay add too much of Hot sauce in her salad ended up sweating along with it.
Then Alvin drop me off home and they head to Nicole's Birthday party! I should had gone , I should had gone to kill this Boredom here!

Had dinner at home! Lol...again I know.. and watched Mary Poppins and waited for bf to come online, but he never showed, so I waited till the movie end but still no sign of him got me to message him on the phone.
He showed up for awhile and then offline again..-.- Then it was the end of it! The line over there was down again..
So there goes my night!
I know I shouldn't be a baby and get pissed, but sometimes I just can't help and just get angry at the world! How it is so unfair at times. I've barely had time to online with him and when I do had the chance, they give me shit! ****


Don't I have the rights to be pissed?

Happy New Year @ 1 year Annivesary Babe..

I still can't believe that we could make it to 1 year.. yeah time kinda travel's really fast.
Some times you want it to last as long as it can and sometimes you just want it to end really fast..
Time is all that we can count on now, I am focusing more on college and I party less now. It's all about me Me ME time.. I guess this is the time where we want to focus on what do we really want and need in our life.
As we are still very young to jump into a wagon and say goodbye to our youth. Are we?

I took this pics so I could remember your eyes..

Remember your nose and your lips..

and your thick eye brows which I loathe to pluck out again someday.. d:




Happy 1year Anniversary Opa!!
Sarang-he..

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