the game. .

I'm guessing your out now watching the MU football match.

I remember those times when we watch the EPL games at your house..
Whenever they are about to score or scored a goal, I will always go nuts and shout so loud middle of the night. The first time I did that you were shocked to see my enthusiasm. ( I do get excited for sports you know) =).

But things has change...
I don't get this kind of services anymore. All I have is the laptop and some friends to entertain me while I'm on it..
Sometimes I wonder why do we put ourselves in this position.
I used to ask myself this, " Is LOVE all that ??"
The answer is... "It's much more...It's everything but once it's broken, it's not easy to mend the broken pieces".




I will still wait for you everyday despite how the situation we are in.


Annoyed and Hurt.

The line is ...........

I need to stay connected all the time. But I can only do so when I'm home..!
I want a BlackBerry.. !!!
If only I have the money I would just get it now! argghhh..

I feel so sick when I cant chat with you, and the fact that the line is so shitty there just makes me feel so angry and annoyed that when there is line, I get fed up and the mood of chatting is gone!!
I'm sorry that it made you fed up too, but it's been happening all the while, it's getting under my skin.
Wouldn't you feel that way too?
I mean, if you stayed home just to chat with someone and this things still always happen... it really does make someone feel so frustrated..!!
But I still stay on despite I know that this is 99.9 % chance of that happening..
Because of you know why...




If I get frustrated, bare with me.... Because it ain't easy..
Live is a roller coaster, It brings you up and down....



they said, the colour purple is for loneliness... so here it is, im lonely. =)

My "INTERNATIONAL" friends..

Alright, most of you must be thinking what the hell my title means.
Well, look at all of us..where are we?
Each of us is somewhere across the big ocean. =)

The Psycho-logist! ( Canada/Penang )

Now here is Melissa a.k.a Emkay!
Born and raise in Canada..You can just remember how crazy she was when we just met her..lol... usually shes the one who will leave us. But now shes staying in Penang while everyone has left the lil island we call home.

The Shopaholic ( Australia )
Yeap, shes the girl that you can shop-till-you-drop!!! ahaha..Oh and not only that, she loves food. Throw anything into her mouth and she will munch..ahaha..miss my cooking??

Still shopping much Wern??? haha xP

The Gym freak ( Australia )

Mel Mel Mel...!! Just left last month.

She my cooking/ baking and use to be my gym buddy!! haha
Ahhh..come back and bake with me!! I love and miss the shitty cookies..=)
She will take you to the best place to indulge, I think I wouldn't had survived in KL without her.

The Drama Queen~ ( unknown )

She stays on the roadside with her luggage full of heels..=)

Im just kidding..

She use to study in Singapore, now moving to SABAH??

Oh no...becarefull there. I never knew how Sabah actually look like, only know there is Mount.Kinabalu.. haha

Our crazy yet loud yet noisy friend. You can never shut her up unless shes angry.

After that, the stories never ends..

The Skinny 1 (UK)

You know why I use the no.1??? Cause shes size 1?? If im wrong, then it be size 0!!

Hahaha..shes bloody thin, but complains that shes fat sometimes... o.O

Don't say in UK May.. there are lotsa fat people there, you would't want to insult them...lol

She a great friend to hang out, easily persuaded and she can hold her liqour now.=)

Miss Retarded ( UK )

She jumps, she shouts, she runs, she FALL's..

Yeap, she's the friend who will just make you laugh and you will give her the "look".. =.="

She spills hot coco on her bed, wth? And sat on it..=.=

I known her since I was 7..nothing change much except her looks of course..

She likes it there, cause the sun aint that bright.. You can see how pale she is..

The Philosopher ( Japan )

The thing's she says something gets you thinking....and then it confuse you.. hahaha
Everything goes into a circle.
No doubt shes short, she definitely has a bitchy attitude..haha..
I can't wait for her to come back, dec yaaa!! Hopefully you still remember how to drive..=)
I love this picture, so cheeky so you!!

The EggHead ( Carribeans )


Yeap, his the furthest amongst all.. Britney is what he hates, but I love her.
Miss having him to just whip up something for me to eat and its not just something simple. He never like making simple food. That's what I like about him. Always being creative and doing something different.
"Look at the moon babe, and just think of me...cause I will too." The calls you make, you sound so near but your far away. Sometimes I think the distance is making us stronger rather than pulling us down. It take TWO to clap your hand is what he always says. Im starting to understand what it means.

And no this aint the current picture of him, lol, its a year ago. I just love this picture of him although I did not snap it. =)

And me!!! ( KL )

Getting adapted to staying alone. The best part of it is cooking dishes that I'm craving for.

I love spending my time grocery shopping now.

You can call me the Coookaholic. =)

Yes I do miss everyone, but the only thing I hope for the most its that we will all REUNITE once again. No hard feelings, just the feeling of love.

Now you can see why we can't live without the internet.

Sometimes I rather just sit here and online whole day. I'll try my very best just to see him once more, each day, everyday. It makes me sleep easy. Makes my heart at ease.

If time does not allow us to, we will always find out way to each other.

Nothing beats this, cause you are special.

We are all Special in a way, and none of us are the same.

1 down, 2 more to go..

You know they say high school friends will always be the one who stays by your side when your down. They will always be the closest friends you will ever have.

They are the ones you want to see when they are away,
The ones that you are longing for to come back,
The ones that will always let you know first when they are coming back.
The ones that you will miss badly.

Now shes gone till next year. And I cant wait to see her already.
I thought I would be fine, cause she had been away for more than a year in KL but I guess my heart is just weak whenever someone leaves.
It's just not easy to see someone close to you, leave.
I will have to endure this again next week.
I don't think It will be easy to see both of them leave, cause where they are going is far.

I am glad that now Im studying in KL.
Because it wont make me think much about them, Im not saying it in a bad way or whatsoever..Just that, I wont be that sad about it.
I always wonder why, people I love always leaves.
The new ones can't replace the closest friends that you have. It's the old heart that enlightens our mind and soul.
I hope that one day, we will all rejoyce again back in the little Island we called HOME.


They will come back, is the matter of waiting.

Wish you were here, the part when I need you the most.
The part when I need your hug to warm my soul.
Im sorry for the things I've done, for the things I did not do and for the things to come.
Im here today, It's all because of you. And Im glad.
You will always be mine.
In my mind, soul and heart.
I love you~


Im sorry for always posting emo craps.

Aint OCD, just Clean. =)

I've been renting a room in a house for like 1 and a half months now.
We have a maid that cleans the house but not ur rooms, alternatively.

But she doesnt clean the fridge, well, cause i'ts not her responsibilty to simply throw out our food.

So the only thing I hate when I first moved in was the kitchen racks and the FRIDGE!!

The maid finally cleaned the kitchen rack a few days ago.

But of course, the fridge was still pack, a mess, smelly and warm due to too much storage!!

Today, I finally got myself to clean the damn fridge..to my horror, the first thing I threw away was a papaya, the thickness of a pancake.. It has been there infront of me but I never knew, rotten, squashed and flatten due to my "clean" housemates who just stack their goods ontop of it and never even bother to throw it away..it was soooo smelly..omg.

Those big big boxes containing those Him Heang biscuits ( must be left by the old tenant, I guess that person must be from Penang.)It was already expired!! Nowanda there wasnt any room in the fridge.

Chocolates that has also expired, fruits rotten like fuck..I just throw every damn thing away.

A few of my housemates came home and saw me cleaning, I ask if any of the stuff is theirs..

Only a few..And most of the stuff was left by the old tenant. WTF..

I wonder how long has that person been gone.

Fucking Ikan Bilis is scattered below the fruit container.

One girl housemate of mine open the fridge to look for her chocolate, and said " Wow, it's really smelly in here huh?". I was thinking in my heart, "Duh, now only you notice?".

Idiots...

My god, why cant they just throw stuff away when they know its already rotten or not in use anymore??

Inconsiderate people.

It took me an hour to clean, wipe and wash everything.

If you are staying in someone's place, at least clean up after yourself.

Yea you pay for the room, doesnt mean you have to keep the outside dirty.

Im not saying that I am VERY CLEAN, but I do clean up after myself.

I lived with a VERY CLEAN mother, and thank god for that, but too much can be a pain in the arse!

I might be a bitch about being clean, but hello, would you bath in a filthy toilet???

I wouldnt....

I wish I can turn back time.

My favourite grandma..let's just call her Ama alright..
She had a minor stroke last week when she was in KL staying with my uncle. And it was the day before he was leaving to China with is wife for a business trip.
So end up, only his wife went and he stayed to take care of my ama.
I havent seen her since she came up because of lack of time and my uncle was busy with work and couldnt pick me up.

The day before she had stroke, she called me while I was about watch G.I Joe.
She called to tell me that shes in KL, and I promised her that I will see her one of these days.
But I didnt..
She cant talk that well, cant hear that well nor walk that well anymore.

Shes leaving back to KK tomorrow and I dunno when will I get to see her.

And she called me again just now telling me how sorry that she couldnt stay long in KL for me to meet her. Hearing her voice stammering was heartbreaking. WHY MUST SHE BE SORRY?
I SHOULD BE THE ONE SAYING THAT...!!!

I've been wanting to go down to KK to meet her and bring Zach along as she always asked when will she get to meet him.
But it was time again that bothers me.

Its a sign that she can't live that long anymore.
But she is strong, I know.. cause she had gone through a bypass, and she is still walking tall till now.
All the time my mum had been asking me to go see her, and I always say "I WILL", but I never once did.
Im regretting in what I should had done. I miss her, and so does she.
She always call me and ask how am I.
She even said she wants me to go see her so that she can give me some pocket money.
It made my tears roll down prefusely.
All I can do is hide in the toilet and cry,


Take time to call your Grandma or Grandpa.
Ask them, how are they doing?
It might not be much, but its a gesture of Love and at least they know that someone still care and thinks of them as much as they do to us.
Without them we wouldnt be here.
Go ahead and make a lovely phone call, or better yet, meet them.
Its worth every penny of your life.


I still Love her cooking, cause shes my hero.

Thank you ~

The place where Im staying, theres a road that leads to Taylor's main campus and Business School. And my friends who stays around my area says that theres alot of robberies or students getting mug there..
So today I have to walk to the post-office which is like around Taylor's, therefore I had to use that road. I was pretty scared at first and thought of many ways to either run or kick the mugger on the nuts if i ever encounter ONE.. lol..
But as I walk along that road, there were 2 police men by the road and a security guard down the road...I felt, SAFE...
I knew there will be a security guard, but I didnt expected police to be patrolling either. lol..

Walking back home, I saw Subway and couldnt resist it as their speacials was turkey ham today for only RM7.50.. Hahaha..
Yes, gotta save up..cant keep spending on expensive food.
Gonna buy some groceries tomorrow and start cooking at home. =)

Didnt do much today, was bored out to death..
I did not buy dinner either as I was lazy to buy dinner which will be teow chew economy rice again.. * can taste the aji inside which is killing my tongue * . So I end up eating weetbix with milk and sugar..lol Anna thought me..
Then waited for my Chagiya to wake up and come online. =)
I know, It seems like it's so lifeless waiting for your loved one everyday to come online.
But, it's worth every second, minute of my life ( that is IF he shows up )..lol
I guess it's just a phase we are going through now, I wonder what will be like in another few more weeks or months?
Will I or you still wait for each other to come online?
Only time will tell.
I love you.

~23~