Sunday 26 July 2009

You belong with me


How are you chagiyaaa?
Now we are thousands of miles away from each other. Im not getting used to not seeing you , are you?
I made a promise to you that i will be strong no matter what happens, and not cry.
I broke the promise.
I seem strong, but Im not. I'm dreading to go college, I'm dreading in KL, I don't like it here and I want to go home.
Yes, I'm getting what I've always wanted, to be in college. To study, to learn what I have been missing this pass 1 and a half years. But everything happens for a reason. If I did went to college before I met you, I wouldnt had ever met you I guess.

I never regret a single bit by choosing to be with you. I knew you were different.
You listened to everything I have to say whenever you fetched me to work. We laughed, we joked, we bonded.
It's a shame that I can't do the same and listen to you for once. For that I'm very sorry.
I miss the time we spend in your car, it was a sweet escape.

You are mature and sensitive, that's what made me drawn into you.
You were caring and you had that sorta charm that I think what made so many girls fall for you, including me. Well it's not a bad charm, it's just your sweet charm.
I fall so deeply in love with you, that sometimes, I don't know where I'm heading, I don't know what Im thinking and I don't know what Im saying that makes such words into circles that will just make you laugh and cuddle me. * I love those times whenever you do that to me, I can just feel the warmth from you*

I know Im different, egoistic and weird.
I don't know why you even like me in the first place. My bad mood swings, my rudeness and my stubborness. But only you can pin-point it out and make me change. I know I didn't change much, but I am trying.
Im trying to be a better person, more patient and less stuborn.
Trying to find what is the purpose in life.
Why am I here?


Remember the first time I've ever opened-up myself to you?
It was after the big opening party, and you insisted on fetching me home. *That time, I had a lil thing for you too, but I didnt know if you felt the same.*
Instead of going home, we end up going to gurney drive and sat along the shore and drank somemore beer.
We talked, and the talk was no longer that funny, it was more of a serious talk about the past, present, future and what I wanted all this while. The part where I poured my tears and soul, shocked you. You did not see that coming, but still, you listened and you gave advices that I never knew you could. Those advise made me realise about life and made me know how mature you are.
I wasn't ashamed that I whipped like a baby , It felt good to finally tell someone about it. And it was you who gave me the courage to tell.

From that day onwards, things changed for the better.
We finally understand a lil bit of each other and what we wanted.
I only get to knew you for 7 months, but I've already get to know almost your entire family.
Your cousins, aunty's, uncle's, your mum, dad and especially your sister gave me the warmest welcome to your family chain. I really do love your family and you, it made leaving Penang even harder everyday. I love being love by you and your family. Something that I've never got much before.
I will never forget the day that I've found you.

I just couldnt let you go to the Carribeans without sending you off.
I just cant! I don't want a phone call that says goodbye.
I hope that you will get used to the place at Turks and Caicos.
One of this day, I want to hear a happy day that happen over there okay?
I promise I'll do the same.

I love you, please take care of yourself.
Take care of your health okay??



I LOVE YOU CHAAAAGI YAAAA !!!!
Muacksss...