Emotionless

Here You go Anna! I took this sometime ago! hahaha
I bet you know where this is, but there are still books right?
Right.

I am emotionless sometimes.
Sometimes I feel like talking, I really do want to talk to you. It was an act of hunger, a hunger to talk to you. Somehow somewhere in between, people do get lost for words and I really dislike talking to you when others are around. Just like when I draw, I hate people looking, just like when I cook, and talk (unless it's people that I am comfortable with) . This is something I really need to change, I am like this since young.

The fact that the person was talking to herself beside me, was just annoying. I'm sorry but I find it really really really rude, because she always does it. It's not only this time but it is ALWAYS!
Even when I am on the phone, she will talk,yell and scold me despite whoever I am talking with, she does not seem to care. She always say " I won't give you face in front of your friends or guest".
Yes, I will lose my face in front of them but I guess she will be the biggest loser of it all. A person who does not respect people's priority and would rather just make a fool of herself.
Never once she is satisfied nor appreciate things people does for her.
She just loves to compare, and compare and compare us with others ( never good to compare), bring out about the past and the bad stuffs. Talks to herself, mumbles, clean,CLEAN, and VERY CLEAN!
I know I shouldn't be saying stuff like this, but I just want people to understand why am I like this towards her because none of you know this. You are not in my shoes, you will never understood the torment I go through. I love her very much but she just love sticking a pin into your butt and the pins just slowly evolves!

My boyfriend thinks that I am talkative, but I'm not.. Really..
I am only talkative towards the person that I am comfortable with and have lots in common.
I maybe noisy at times, but it only last for awhile. When I'm beat and down, thing's gets a bit too quiet around. I am pretty much dead/ lifeless/ motionless.
I barely even mingle around with my college friends, because I am not comfortable around them.. It's pretty hard to actually find people who are nice to talk with.
Some people do talk a lot of crap, like really crappy, but there are people who really enjoy this.. I just don't get it at times. People just love crappy words I guess.



I do like being quiet you know, let peace into the mind.

TIme wasted

Got up late as usual nowadays..it's a holiday, don't blame me..
Went out with Emkay and her friends, Alvin, Brian, Samantha and Christ for a movie called The Imaginarium of Dr.Parnassus by the great late Heath Ledger, Christopher Plummer ( the guy who acted in the Sound of Music as the father) yes he is still alive. Lol.. along with Jude Law, Johnny Depp and Colin Farrell. It was definitely a messy movie, and I would not want to watch it a second time man. The actors were good, just not the story line, it was messy and somewhat I called confusing you and makes you just want to close your eyes and fall into lala - land. For a movie like that, TOO MUCH DRAMA !!
Then got to Nando's and had dinner which I should be eating since I was suppose to go home for dinner, but the smell of the chicken was too tempting!! So I had Chicken Salad instead to fill my craving! lol... Emkay add too much of Hot sauce in her salad ended up sweating along with it.
Then Alvin drop me off home and they head to Nicole's Birthday party! I should had gone , I should had gone to kill this Boredom here!

Had dinner at home! Lol...again I know.. and watched Mary Poppins and waited for bf to come online, but he never showed, so I waited till the movie end but still no sign of him got me to message him on the phone.
He showed up for awhile and then offline again..-.- Then it was the end of it! The line over there was down again..
So there goes my night!
I know I shouldn't be a baby and get pissed, but sometimes I just can't help and just get angry at the world! How it is so unfair at times. I've barely had time to online with him and when I do had the chance, they give me shit! ****


Don't I have the rights to be pissed?

Happy New Year @ 1 year Annivesary Babe..

I still can't believe that we could make it to 1 year.. yeah time kinda travel's really fast.
Some times you want it to last as long as it can and sometimes you just want it to end really fast..
Time is all that we can count on now, I am focusing more on college and I party less now. It's all about me Me ME time.. I guess this is the time where we want to focus on what do we really want and need in our life.
As we are still very young to jump into a wagon and say goodbye to our youth. Are we?

I took this pics so I could remember your eyes..

Remember your nose and your lips..

and your thick eye brows which I loathe to pluck out again someday.. d:




Happy 1year Anniversary Opa!!
Sarang-he..

muacks..~