I wish I can turn back time.

My favourite grandma..let's just call her Ama alright..
She had a minor stroke last week when she was in KL staying with my uncle. And it was the day before he was leaving to China with is wife for a business trip.
So end up, only his wife went and he stayed to take care of my ama.
I havent seen her since she came up because of lack of time and my uncle was busy with work and couldnt pick me up.

The day before she had stroke, she called me while I was about watch G.I Joe.
She called to tell me that shes in KL, and I promised her that I will see her one of these days.
But I didnt..
She cant talk that well, cant hear that well nor walk that well anymore.

Shes leaving back to KK tomorrow and I dunno when will I get to see her.

And she called me again just now telling me how sorry that she couldnt stay long in KL for me to meet her. Hearing her voice stammering was heartbreaking. WHY MUST SHE BE SORRY?
I SHOULD BE THE ONE SAYING THAT...!!!

I've been wanting to go down to KK to meet her and bring Zach along as she always asked when will she get to meet him.
But it was time again that bothers me.

Its a sign that she can't live that long anymore.
But she is strong, I know.. cause she had gone through a bypass, and she is still walking tall till now.
All the time my mum had been asking me to go see her, and I always say "I WILL", but I never once did.
Im regretting in what I should had done. I miss her, and so does she.
She always call me and ask how am I.
She even said she wants me to go see her so that she can give me some pocket money.
It made my tears roll down prefusely.
All I can do is hide in the toilet and cry,


Take time to call your Grandma or Grandpa.
Ask them, how are they doing?
It might not be much, but its a gesture of Love and at least they know that someone still care and thinks of them as much as they do to us.
Without them we wouldnt be here.
Go ahead and make a lovely phone call, or better yet, meet them.
Its worth every penny of your life.


I still Love her cooking, cause shes my hero.

Thank you ~

The place where Im staying, theres a road that leads to Taylor's main campus and Business School. And my friends who stays around my area says that theres alot of robberies or students getting mug there..
So today I have to walk to the post-office which is like around Taylor's, therefore I had to use that road. I was pretty scared at first and thought of many ways to either run or kick the mugger on the nuts if i ever encounter ONE.. lol..
But as I walk along that road, there were 2 police men by the road and a security guard down the road...I felt, SAFE...
I knew there will be a security guard, but I didnt expected police to be patrolling either. lol..

Walking back home, I saw Subway and couldnt resist it as their speacials was turkey ham today for only RM7.50.. Hahaha..
Yes, gotta save up..cant keep spending on expensive food.
Gonna buy some groceries tomorrow and start cooking at home. =)

Didnt do much today, was bored out to death..
I did not buy dinner either as I was lazy to buy dinner which will be teow chew economy rice again.. * can taste the aji inside which is killing my tongue * . So I end up eating weetbix with milk and sugar..lol Anna thought me..
Then waited for my Chagiya to wake up and come online. =)
I know, It seems like it's so lifeless waiting for your loved one everyday to come online.
But, it's worth every second, minute of my life ( that is IF he shows up )..lol
I guess it's just a phase we are going through now, I wonder what will be like in another few more weeks or months?
Will I or you still wait for each other to come online?
Only time will tell.
I love you.

~23~

Still do...

I've been staying in KL, well, about a month already. But it doesn't feel like it's KL when you have friends like Amelia, Anna and May coming to KL every other weekend to party. Hahaha..


Yes it is in KL but I still feel like Im home! ~ which is a good thing ~





Spontaneous ~ yes they are!
Crazy ~ Yes IM GOING CRAZY..
Hyper ~ SOooo hyper when night falls..

Parties, parties and more to come~
It's good to have friends like them, cause who know you aint gonna be bored.
This are the times when I need them the most.

I still chat with my beloved boi although we've "broken up".
Well not everyday, but we try our best to see each other whenever we can.
It doesnt seem like we can let go of each other yet.
Yes we may be apart from each other, but the heart still wants what it wants.

" There are times when I thought you will one day forget about me, but I will have to erase it from my mind, just walk along the path where I'm suppose to. I dunno where it leads to, but I have to move on. Move on to know the world, to meet other people and to know myself better. You might feel the same way as I did too, that I don't love you anymore, but you are wrong, because no matter what, you will always be my no.1 , your heart stays in mind".



While Im waiting for you here, I don't know how long I can take this.
I will just have to wait, wait for you to come.
Be patience and wait.
I dont know where are you or what you are doing,
but Im just glad that everytime I see you, you will tell me what you did.
Honesty is what I need.

I♥you..