Emotionless

Here You go Anna! I took this sometime ago! hahaha
I bet you know where this is, but there are still books right?
Right.

I am emotionless sometimes.
Sometimes I feel like talking, I really do want to talk to you. It was an act of hunger, a hunger to talk to you. Somehow somewhere in between, people do get lost for words and I really dislike talking to you when others are around. Just like when I draw, I hate people looking, just like when I cook, and talk (unless it's people that I am comfortable with) . This is something I really need to change, I am like this since young.

The fact that the person was talking to herself beside me, was just annoying. I'm sorry but I find it really really really rude, because she always does it. It's not only this time but it is ALWAYS!
Even when I am on the phone, she will talk,yell and scold me despite whoever I am talking with, she does not seem to care. She always say " I won't give you face in front of your friends or guest".
Yes, I will lose my face in front of them but I guess she will be the biggest loser of it all. A person who does not respect people's priority and would rather just make a fool of herself.
Never once she is satisfied nor appreciate things people does for her.
She just loves to compare, and compare and compare us with others ( never good to compare), bring out about the past and the bad stuffs. Talks to herself, mumbles, clean,CLEAN, and VERY CLEAN!
I know I shouldn't be saying stuff like this, but I just want people to understand why am I like this towards her because none of you know this. You are not in my shoes, you will never understood the torment I go through. I love her very much but she just love sticking a pin into your butt and the pins just slowly evolves!

My boyfriend thinks that I am talkative, but I'm not.. Really..
I am only talkative towards the person that I am comfortable with and have lots in common.
I maybe noisy at times, but it only last for awhile. When I'm beat and down, thing's gets a bit too quiet around. I am pretty much dead/ lifeless/ motionless.
I barely even mingle around with my college friends, because I am not comfortable around them.. It's pretty hard to actually find people who are nice to talk with.
Some people do talk a lot of crap, like really crappy, but there are people who really enjoy this.. I just don't get it at times. People just love crappy words I guess.



I do like being quiet you know, let peace into the mind.

TIme wasted

Got up late as usual nowadays..it's a holiday, don't blame me..
Went out with Emkay and her friends, Alvin, Brian, Samantha and Christ for a movie called The Imaginarium of Dr.Parnassus by the great late Heath Ledger, Christopher Plummer ( the guy who acted in the Sound of Music as the father) yes he is still alive. Lol.. along with Jude Law, Johnny Depp and Colin Farrell. It was definitely a messy movie, and I would not want to watch it a second time man. The actors were good, just not the story line, it was messy and somewhat I called confusing you and makes you just want to close your eyes and fall into lala - land. For a movie like that, TOO MUCH DRAMA !!
Then got to Nando's and had dinner which I should be eating since I was suppose to go home for dinner, but the smell of the chicken was too tempting!! So I had Chicken Salad instead to fill my craving! lol... Emkay add too much of Hot sauce in her salad ended up sweating along with it.
Then Alvin drop me off home and they head to Nicole's Birthday party! I should had gone , I should had gone to kill this Boredom here!

Had dinner at home! Lol...again I know.. and watched Mary Poppins and waited for bf to come online, but he never showed, so I waited till the movie end but still no sign of him got me to message him on the phone.
He showed up for awhile and then offline again..-.- Then it was the end of it! The line over there was down again..
So there goes my night!
I know I shouldn't be a baby and get pissed, but sometimes I just can't help and just get angry at the world! How it is so unfair at times. I've barely had time to online with him and when I do had the chance, they give me shit! ****


Don't I have the rights to be pissed?

Happy New Year @ 1 year Annivesary Babe..

I still can't believe that we could make it to 1 year.. yeah time kinda travel's really fast.
Some times you want it to last as long as it can and sometimes you just want it to end really fast..
Time is all that we can count on now, I am focusing more on college and I party less now. It's all about me Me ME time.. I guess this is the time where we want to focus on what do we really want and need in our life.
As we are still very young to jump into a wagon and say goodbye to our youth. Are we?

I took this pics so I could remember your eyes..

Remember your nose and your lips..

and your thick eye brows which I loathe to pluck out again someday.. d:




Happy 1year Anniversary Opa!!
Sarang-he..

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Smilesssssssss...

the game. .

I'm guessing your out now watching the MU football match.

I remember those times when we watch the EPL games at your house..
Whenever they are about to score or scored a goal, I will always go nuts and shout so loud middle of the night. The first time I did that you were shocked to see my enthusiasm. ( I do get excited for sports you know) =).

But things has change...
I don't get this kind of services anymore. All I have is the laptop and some friends to entertain me while I'm on it..
Sometimes I wonder why do we put ourselves in this position.
I used to ask myself this, " Is LOVE all that ??"
The answer is... "It's much more...It's everything but once it's broken, it's not easy to mend the broken pieces".




I will still wait for you everyday despite how the situation we are in.


Annoyed and Hurt.

The line is ...........

I need to stay connected all the time. But I can only do so when I'm home..!
I want a BlackBerry.. !!!
If only I have the money I would just get it now! argghhh..

I feel so sick when I cant chat with you, and the fact that the line is so shitty there just makes me feel so angry and annoyed that when there is line, I get fed up and the mood of chatting is gone!!
I'm sorry that it made you fed up too, but it's been happening all the while, it's getting under my skin.
Wouldn't you feel that way too?
I mean, if you stayed home just to chat with someone and this things still always happen... it really does make someone feel so frustrated..!!
But I still stay on despite I know that this is 99.9 % chance of that happening..
Because of you know why...




If I get frustrated, bare with me.... Because it ain't easy..
Live is a roller coaster, It brings you up and down....



they said, the colour purple is for loneliness... so here it is, im lonely. =)

My "INTERNATIONAL" friends..

Alright, most of you must be thinking what the hell my title means.
Well, look at all of us..where are we?
Each of us is somewhere across the big ocean. =)

The Psycho-logist! ( Canada/Penang )

Now here is Melissa a.k.a Emkay!
Born and raise in Canada..You can just remember how crazy she was when we just met her..lol... usually shes the one who will leave us. But now shes staying in Penang while everyone has left the lil island we call home.

The Shopaholic ( Australia )
Yeap, shes the girl that you can shop-till-you-drop!!! ahaha..Oh and not only that, she loves food. Throw anything into her mouth and she will munch..ahaha..miss my cooking??

Still shopping much Wern??? haha xP

The Gym freak ( Australia )

Mel Mel Mel...!! Just left last month.

She my cooking/ baking and use to be my gym buddy!! haha
Ahhh..come back and bake with me!! I love and miss the shitty cookies..=)
She will take you to the best place to indulge, I think I wouldn't had survived in KL without her.

The Drama Queen~ ( unknown )

She stays on the roadside with her luggage full of heels..=)

Im just kidding..

She use to study in Singapore, now moving to SABAH??

Oh no...becarefull there. I never knew how Sabah actually look like, only know there is Mount.Kinabalu.. haha

Our crazy yet loud yet noisy friend. You can never shut her up unless shes angry.

After that, the stories never ends..

The Skinny 1 (UK)

You know why I use the no.1??? Cause shes size 1?? If im wrong, then it be size 0!!

Hahaha..shes bloody thin, but complains that shes fat sometimes... o.O

Don't say in UK May.. there are lotsa fat people there, you would't want to insult them...lol

She a great friend to hang out, easily persuaded and she can hold her liqour now.=)

Miss Retarded ( UK )

She jumps, she shouts, she runs, she FALL's..

Yeap, she's the friend who will just make you laugh and you will give her the "look".. =.="

She spills hot coco on her bed, wth? And sat on it..=.=

I known her since I was 7..nothing change much except her looks of course..

She likes it there, cause the sun aint that bright.. You can see how pale she is..

The Philosopher ( Japan )

The thing's she says something gets you thinking....and then it confuse you.. hahaha
Everything goes into a circle.
No doubt shes short, she definitely has a bitchy attitude..haha..
I can't wait for her to come back, dec yaaa!! Hopefully you still remember how to drive..=)
I love this picture, so cheeky so you!!

The EggHead ( Carribeans )


Yeap, his the furthest amongst all.. Britney is what he hates, but I love her.
Miss having him to just whip up something for me to eat and its not just something simple. He never like making simple food. That's what I like about him. Always being creative and doing something different.
"Look at the moon babe, and just think of me...cause I will too." The calls you make, you sound so near but your far away. Sometimes I think the distance is making us stronger rather than pulling us down. It take TWO to clap your hand is what he always says. Im starting to understand what it means.

And no this aint the current picture of him, lol, its a year ago. I just love this picture of him although I did not snap it. =)

And me!!! ( KL )

Getting adapted to staying alone. The best part of it is cooking dishes that I'm craving for.

I love spending my time grocery shopping now.

You can call me the Coookaholic. =)

Yes I do miss everyone, but the only thing I hope for the most its that we will all REUNITE once again. No hard feelings, just the feeling of love.

Now you can see why we can't live without the internet.

Sometimes I rather just sit here and online whole day. I'll try my very best just to see him once more, each day, everyday. It makes me sleep easy. Makes my heart at ease.

If time does not allow us to, we will always find out way to each other.

Nothing beats this, cause you are special.

We are all Special in a way, and none of us are the same.