What is wrong with me?

What is wrong? I can't seem to understand about this constant cough that I am having. I has been a week or more and I am still not well. I feel more vulnerable this days and mostly I can't seem to finish up my meal!!! And this really annoys me.
A few times I got my meal, feeling so hungry and thinking that I could gulp down every inch of the food on my plate but once I look at the food on my plate, I feel full enough to puke out the food that I have not even swallow. I take a few bites and then I was done with my meal, It's like my eyes just ate up the food!
I feel bad cause I am wasting the food. As I am writing this blog, my Korean noodle is very well staring at me begging me to eat them! Ahhhhhhh!!! I just took a few bites, and appetite just died like that. What a bummer!

Oh and vulnerable meaning I get upset and depress easily nowadays. The arguments that I have with him, I feel very well damn bad. I apologize for my behavior, I really don't know why am I like this, for this couple of days. This sickness is taking a toll of me, and I am hating it!

Please make me well! I don't like being like this, a paranoid bitch!!

Happy Birthday Chagiya~

To my one and only beloved boyfriend, Mr.Egghead..!! ( xoxo)
Today is his birthday, a little older, and a more wiser him.
The picture below was taken last year after our, no no, HIS drinking session, hmmm more like it was for him of course, he was the birthday boy on his 21st of course his cousins will not let him go.* Note the man whom is pulling his pants down, not letting go of him*

This year, I can't be there for his 22nd. But there will be more birthday to come right boo? :)
I am so glad that we got this 11 months through so quickly and smoothly.
Yes there were ups and downs. Through all the tears when you went away, and the arguments we solved briefly in an instant. Never letting arguments be dragged for too long or too many hours even, made us today.
You always seem so comfortable with me and that made me comfortable.
You make me feel comfortable to be my own self and I don't need to try hard to impress you.
You treat a girl with full of respect and made me feel special.
You make me whole again.

I hope there will forever be you and I, cause I ain't letting go my one and only egghead.

I did not want an ordinary picture of his face or his face with my face in it, so this picture seems perfect!! Something to describe what really went down last year.

I know it seems harsh to post an embarrassing picture but well.. its just me.

When she was 19 going on 20.

Guess who? Nope, not me.. Taken on 4th of March 1977.
Found this picture at my uncle house when my aunt brought out some old photo album for me to see. I have to say, she does look like me does she not? She was then, still learning to be a nurse. (She claims that she was eating while someone took a picture of her *don't mind the disturbing bended arm*)
:)

Back to my cubicle.

Yeap, back where I belong, in my cubicle and back to the society of networking. :)
I am glad to be back here ( surprisingly) a few days with my family seems enough already I miss them dearly but I miss my laptop more.. lol..
A 1 night stay end up to a 5 night stay.

My first 2 days outing with my mum was to IKEA and to The Curve since she has not been there before along with my 2 younger cousins. She loves IKEA now.. :)

This is me waiting under the blazing sun for at least 10min or 15min because of this!!!
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e.Yes!!! THIS! Arrived at the condo with such tight security, look at the entrance for humans to pass through. I waited for my grandpa to get me in, and there are at least 7 to 8 blocks of apartments in there so the walk to the main gate is sooooooo FAR.. My first time going there so this was pretty new to me.

My rock star mum waiting to strut IKEA!

Food my love.

Food in IKEA is not great anymore except for the meatballs still good. But the Salmon and roasted chicken seem to have a mixed up sauce. I think the creamy dill sauce should be on the salmon and not the chicken and that sour-ish taste sauce is suppose to be on the chicken. But when I look at my neighbor (stranger), the sauce was the same so maybe the worker is not really thinking straight while working.

And of course, some pear cider after a 2 hour shop in IKEA.

My cousin, Hang hang.

The view from their apartment at dawn is beautiful.

I am loving this red sling bag that I got from the flee market at the Curve, such a lovely lil red thing.

At the Craving's, they serve very good Mee Siam with Honey roasted chicken and Thup Thim Krup, a must have whenever I spot a place that serve this lil red Ruby's.

I took my mum to 1-Utama the following next few days as well to watch Sex and the City 2. And thank goodness it was Wednesday, MOVIE DAY! Woot~
It is so worth it to watch that movie I say, I laugh throughout the movie and even tried not to laugh so much cause we were so loud! Even the girl beside me kept laughing but she kept her voice to a minimum but some parts, almost everyone never failed to laugh. I love Samantha in this part 2 sequel, so horny yet funny! Hahaha..
I am glad I took my mum to that movie, better than being stuck in my uncle house and rot.
With my grandma around, I gain few pounds. ;)

Back to my hole and back to work tomorrow, just another week more and I am done with my internship! Yes! I am really looking forward to it. Have not been to work for 6 days, people are starting to wonder where am I? But hey, they made my schedule like that Saturday and Sunday (OFF DAY) and Wednesday and Thursday (OFF DAY), I was sick on Monday and Tuesday so don't blame me.

Stuck

Mummy is here with my grandparents, been going out to Ikea and whatever mall that is stated there for 2 days straight. Staying in my uncle house and with my cousins for the past 4 days without my laptop! So deprive!!!!!!! My initiate plan was to stay 2 days and 1 night then head back to my subang cubicle but I ended up falling sick, headache, sorethroat and got to take mc for 2 days..:)
Wednesday and Thursday are my off days as well again. So here goes my 6 days off again..
Lol..but who cares. I just want my beauty rest being pampered by my mum and grandma.
Ever since I fell sick, my ama keep taking care of me, asking me whether do I want to eat, do I want her to rub my forehead, neck and back with the "minyak angin". Lol...
She did once on my first day of sickness, but Im too shy to make her do that again.. shes already so old and fragile.
Now I can't wait to go back to my cubicle, it's just too cramp here, and whenever I want to sleep its so noisy.. They just keep talking and talking. I am out of clean cloths, undies, bra, and yet, I have not shave since friday.. * shy* lol... And I need my laptop...:(
I just need to savour this family as it's not always I get to see them.. so Tahan... tahan....
Will blog more about my outing with my mum and cousin's once Im back in my cubicle and with my pictures..:)

Random outing

Finish work at 3pm today and Stephanie caught me by surprise today at work by showing up(she was done with her internship since 4th of June).
She did messaged me but I did not read it until after I have met her.
Hung out with her at Pavilion till night falls.
She shopped, I "window shopped" but end up trying a dress and jeans because she insisted that I try just for the fun of it.
I am done reading Marco Pierre White Autobiography novel since last Sunday. Nothing to entertain me now on my bus rides and train rides but music, sigh. 2 weeks begone!

With my ding-dong bell hair..!!! *going crazy*

Camwhored in the changing room while waiting for her to be done trying out her massive picks.
A lil' vain-ess is okay..:)
I like this dress alot from FOREVER 21, but did not buy it, I was broke...it cost Rm109, a tad too expensive and out of my budget no?



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Wishing you were here now.

I miss on-lining with him!!!!! I think I got so dependent on it for almost a year that now I am addicted to this routine. Since his working at this restaurant, to online will be only at night. That is when my eyes are the size of a toothpick so conversations always goes downhill. Falling asleep kind.

Egghead said I love him more now just because he is thinner now and he even claimed that I only call him HOT now. Hahaha!!!
I'm with you.
Still falling for you.
Hot or not hot, your still my chagiya.

A picture of us, the day before he left about 11 months ago. I still love this picture despite egghead dislikes it due to his size here, but I could not care less cause this picture look sweet.

Mummy is in KL for a week or so with Ama and Ah Kong !! Making plans to take her to Ikea since she never been there I think! lol.. Hope this will take my mind off of things.